The unconscious Line-Up

The line up.
Today was to be cleaning day which is why I am sitting on the floor playing with pictures. I pieced together the last three I did, out of sequence, and I think they fit together like pieces of a puzzle. It was not intentional. I like to think I am conscious of what I am doing but I am not infrequently wrong on that point.

Eclipse

(Staring at the sun with my heart in my throat.)

This page is from a different book.

As it turns out I am not infrequently wrong.
And I have no idea what comes next.

Apology

I cannot recall if I ever mailed a copy of this letter.
It reads:

'Dear C-

There is no excuse for my not having written in so long. I wrote letter after letter and never mailed them,
disgusted with the fact that they were the same story over and over again.
My constantly predicted decline; each time I spiral down I find myself looking up.
Being the method of your own destruction is not only tiring but so very, very common.
I still work, I still hope. I miss you, and I find myself with a steady ---- (*letter torn) of ideas for which you would be the ideal model. The latest of which is --- (*) illustration of a common plea:
I do not want to die terrified,
I do not want to die weeping,
I do not want to die holding the heart of someone I love in my hands.
I see a woman prostrate before the opened pages of a newspaper upon which has been placed a cow heart.
I would use a human heart but aside from the legal ramifications they are just too small.
------- (*crossed out)
Love,
Z'

Palimpsest

Trying to find the story inside.

I know it's in here.

Ring in the new...

'When all else is lost, the future still remains.'
-Bovee



Year's End - 'Ghosted by numbers' 2011

The fourth year of Year's End series.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/laurensimonutti/sets/72157628672510059/

Addendum

On why 'Drowning' is such an important book for me, it was the first project that I had ever conceived and completed from beginning to end. Before that I always thought in terms of the single masterpiece image, that line of thought works for some but it caused me to miss some important things until I made the 'Drowning Discovery'. With 'Drowning' I became a storyteller. And that's what I want to be when I grow up.

Drowning, not waving Artist Book

This is where I started. This is where the path revealed itself. This one matters the most to me so I am making it available at a most reasonable rate. $26 includes shipping US, $31 international. When interested contact me directly at rabbitlange@gmail.com


A visual narrative artist book
Description
Fewer than 30% of suicides leave a note. More probably make the effort but find the results inadequate, the futile attempt at describing logically a desperate and illogical act.
Contained in this volume are 31 case studies-
1. brief case history 2. snapshot 3. photographic documentation of items from pickets, found clutched int he hands, or arranged to be the last thing the deceased would see in the world.
Of individuals who, feeling their lives had failed, ended them;
and finding that words had failed, abandoned them.
In the hopes that these objects will speak to us in lieu of the notes that were not left.
76 pages, 4/4 full colour offset press, handmade cover, comb binding.

And here are a few examples as to how this tale is told.

























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